The Brain is Fascinating

Sometimes I really don’t like my brain. I am the type of person who is constantly thinking, analyzing, over analyzing, wondering, questioning and all that fun stuff. I know everyone does that too but I think I do it more to the extreme – especially since I don’t talk too much. Instead of vocalizing things, they just remain internal conflicts. It can get rather annoying sometimes because nothing is simple according to my brain! Things that should be simple and I shouldn’t necessarily put much effort into thinking about, well that just isn’t allowed to happen for me. Trying to fall asleep can be interesting sometimes too because I might have a small thought in my head and I tend to magnify it to try to figure it out, asking what ifs, why’s, and can’t fall asleep until I have come to a conclusion or have totally exhausted myself too much to stay awake. More often than not, it’s the latter that ends up happening. That’s just a little about me and my brain!

Right now I should be studying for something worth 32% of my final mark but I am just not able to focus – my brain is too preoccupied with other things.

I wish I knew how I could know some things. Some of the things I could ask people but some things I can only figure out for myself – with God’s help of course. I just wish I could speed my brain along to find the answer faster! I think that would make some things a lot easier for me.

And now I am going to type a poem by Shel Silverstein. The reason for putting this poem in was because my brother was quoting part of it and I couldn’t remember the whole thing so I thought it would be interesting to look it up and decided to post it on here! I performed this poem in elementary school, came in first place, went on to compete in the ACSI championships and did very well. This was at a point in time when I was actually ok with talking in front of people – lol what happened!

Sick by Shel Silverstein
Sick "I cannot go to school today,"
Said little Peggy Ann McKay.
"I have the measles and the mumps,
A gash, a rash and purple bumps.
My mouth is wet, my throat is dry,
I'm going blind in my right eye.
My tonsils are as big as rocks,
I've counted sixteen chicken pox
And there's one more - that's seventeen,
And don't you think my face looks green?
My leg is cut, my eyes are blue -
It might be instamatic flu.
I cough and sneeze and gasp and choke,
I'm sure that my left leg is broke -
My hip hurts when I move my chin,
My belly button's caving in,
My back is wrenched, my ankle's sprained,
My 'pendix pains each time it rains.
My nose is cold, my toes are numb,
I have a sliver in my thumb.
My neck is stiff, my spine is weak,
I hardly whisper when I speak.
My tongue is filling up my mouth,
I think my hair is falling out.
My elbow's bent, my spine ain't straight,
My temperature is one-o-eight.
My brain is shrunk, I cannot hear,
There is a hole inside my ear.
I have a hangnail, and my heart is -
what? What's that? What's that you say?
You say today is ... Saturday?
G'bye, I'm going out to play!"

So I think that is all I have to say for now. I know I didn’t say very much but oh well! I will say that work is going better now. Last week was very rough. I think God is really teaching me about patience, discipline and having a good balance between those so that people don’t walk all over me. I haven’t perfected it yet and I know I will still have my ups and downs but He’s helping me learn and improve. I am just thankful that I know people were standing behind me and had my back and they still do as the situation is ongoing.

God is always there and listening if I need to talk and I am very thankful for that. I love Him so much! I can’t imagine what my life would be like without Him. Well, I can imagine somewhat and it just would not be pretty. I can never thank Him enough for what He has done for me! God is amazing!!!

Absolutely Incredible

I am in absolute awe - WOW! That is all I have to say about that – wow. God is just so incredibly, utterly, superbly amazing!! I love Him so much!

I am so enthralled by the beauty of God’s creation, I can’t help but get excited when I am surrounded by evidence of Him and His masterpieces. I just love to admire His creation! Whether it be lying on a dock up north staring up at the infinite number of stars and having the incredible opportunity of seeing 16 shooting stars in the wee hours of the morning :-) or looking up at the beautiful blue sky and watching fluffy globs of condensation drift by, I have no choice but to thank Him and tell Him how awesome He is.

On my bus ride home today, I was mesmerized by the colour of the sky and how beautiful the day was, so much so that when I got to my car, I just couldn’t get in. Instead I decided to sit down on the curb and just admire it all. I felt the warm sun on the side of my face, watched the butterflies and locusts, heard the leaves and grasses brushing up against each other, felt the cool breeze blow my hair across my cheeks. I am so blessed to be able to experience all of this! God is so incredibly awesome! As I was sitting there, I picked up a plant and was reminded of God’s creativity. It had soft red hairs surrounding tiny green seeds making up the core. The fact that I have never seen a plant like this before and am fascinated with experiencing new things in nature, the greater desire I had to want to experience Him more, the creator of it all! I thank God for giving me the senses to experience His creation!

God has been working on some things in my life and I find that really exciting. I am thinking in a way that I haven’t thought before, I am learning new things about myself and learning more about Him every day. It definitely isn’t an easy task but I am definitely up for the challenge! I have made my share of mistakes in the past as we all have and I’m learning how to steer clear of making those mistakes. I am learning to trust in Him more and less on myself. I know very well that if I try to make things happen on my own, they just fail miserably! I am trying very hard to not mess things up and will succeed with His help. Some of this is brand new territory for me but I remember specifically asking for this which is incredible! I asked to be put in new territory and He has let me be there and is showing me how to cross it. By faith I will not take any of the side paths that lead back to the old territory. I am totally looking forward to each day and the different things He might be teaching me that day and how I can get closer to Him. It’s not about me, it’s all about Him!